Mid life crisis

So, I feel like I am struggling a bit as of late. When I take a step back, I can certainly see why I am having a hard time. There is a lot of change and a lot of decisions swirling around my life and honestly, has been for a few years. It is hard for me though to take that step back and give myself the break when it is in my nature to find, ponder and fix. I had a friend tell me the other day that I am not a very content person. REALLY? Know me much? I can grab on to contentment a moment at a time, yes. I can loose myself in a wonderful song, a special moment with my family, a sunset, even relax for as long as a vacation lasts. But the critique always comes right back. I have been trying to make right decisions about where the kids go to school, what steps to make financially, how to loose weight, what to do with my job, what I can be doing better in my relationships....I'm exausted just writing this all out, much less living it. I think if I explore them via the blog maybe I can write out some clarity and peace.