Back to the Resolutions

So back on track with the resolutions, July was giving compliments and I did ok, I guess. It was easy to give some to the kids, and a few with my husband. I can't say that it got much bigger than that though. Like stated before, the adding things on will be a lot more difficult. I didn't have any resolution planned at first for August. The month creaped up on me because of school starting. Not many days went by though, when the month's goal landed in my lap. August is going to be about adding humility. I was confronted by someone who shared with me that they felt I was cold, guarded, and my close friends make other people feel 'less than.' Wow, ok. That was heavy. I would be lying if I said this is the first time this was thrown my way. Heck, my own mother would probably say that I have a way of being hard to reach and distant. The truth is when I am around people that make me feel very comfortable, talking and sharing come easily. But, in a large group or mixed variety of people I tend to feel the vibe and perpetuate it. No one is going to say that I give the warm and fuzzys constantly, I agree. I don't think it's fair though to look at one aspect of a personality and judge so severely about it. This person didn't have the ability to see behind the scenes and see that many times I was working to include others to gatherings...even though the gatherings did not come off as warm and sincere.
There are plenty of friends that I have found that love the whole package of what I offer, so I could have defended my actions and cried foul. Instead, I let the words sink in and heard a voice say, "humility." Wrong or right, she wanted to be heard. Part of me immediately wanted to be that woman who says, "Can't please them all, bye!" Part of me let the words seep into that sad place and thought, "See, she just said what you have known all along..you are not good enough." But the best part of me remembered that I had been praying for God to guide me, use me, show me, and so I decided to be humble. I am not willing to wear everything she said, but I did hear everything she said.....and I turn the rest over to Him.