Catch Up

So, wow. That was one busy move that I did! I moved houses and then threw a baby shower a few weeks later...that makes for a lot of lists and busy days and weekends! What it neglects is blogging. Not in the mood, too tired, easier to fold laundry and watch tv at 9 o'clock, than it is to sit and consider my thoughts and feelings. So where to we begin? I still continued to take my month resolutions, with some success, some screw ups. It's been a nice experiment to be sure! February was no alcohol. It was actually easy (I like the black and white) until it came to the very end of the month and I was moving into the house. I had boxed, moved, painted, sweat myself so much that all I wanted the 29th of Feb was a extra cold beer. Let's just say that I stayed up till midnight just to make it happen. Nothing like going from iron will to desperation in a matter of hours. I hated the thought waiting for the hours to tick by to have something. It wasn't supposed to be like that.
March was about not yelling. That was not so easy in a two story house in the first month of moving. I failed a few times...but if I caught myself from loosing my temper at my kids, it was worth the effort of trying.
April was about no fast food and caffeine. It hurt when I was out running errands and wanted to grab something on the go. It wasn't like I was longing from McDonalds from my house for sure. The caffeine was hard as Scott had morning coffee and I had decaf tea. It doesn't taste the same to be honest and I missed the extra umph that I had in the morning. I hated the caffeine headache though - showed me how horrible caffeine is. On a positive note, I drank a lot more water! So now I am doing half and half, and do a lot fewer fast food stops!
May was going to be no criticism but I have just changed my mind. My daughter just called to tell me good night from a sleepover from a new place. I thought about not letting her go to a house that was not one of my closest friends. I ran through several different scenarios of how it could go badly...but then I realized I needed to let go of some control. Letting go of control is one of my biggest obsticles so it is a natural choice for May. Even saying it makes me take a deep breath, think of God, mentally makes me picture letting go of the wheel and giving it up. It is a perfect exercise of what I should be doing on a daily basis. Now, granted, just like the rest of the months, I will be tested. I'm almost afraid of how much. But, I have to be ready...its a good one!