Ah, Complaining...the bane of my existence

So, days have ticked by and complaints have danced around my lips and swirled in my head so many times I've lost count. I have two young children, a husband, a small community and 10 pounds to loose....a saint would have a hard time without popping off a little something here and there! I've had look closely at why I chose this for my first month of resolutions. What was my point. I come up with two things, really. First, I do hate mindless, do nothing complaints. That's why when I read a Martha Beck article about trying to stifle the complaints to create more action, I jumped on it. I must say that when a school issue came up last week, instead of just discussing what I didn't like about it, I also wrote some letters, went to a meeting, got some people stirred up. Went out of the box a little. Mission accomplished in that way I think. On the other hand, I also picked this topic first because I thought it would make me more mindful. I find myself wishing to be more mindful and aware all of the time. I can compare it to my spiritual life most of all. A couple of days can go by and I forget all about that I'm supposed to be having this daily conversation with God. This exercise has not really helped me be more mindful at all times though. I can be for a moment. Like, ok, here comes a neighbor...make sure you are complaint and gossip free. Very good. But an hour later....bam! And then again, what is a complaint? Is pointing out that I hate clutter in my kids room a complaint? What about, my husband made me so upset today...and then spew the details out to a friend? I feel like I teeter on the higher side of positive for the most part..so am I being too critical of myself? Wouldn't be the first time, my friend. So far, I feel like the hardest part is to be present, to catch my thoughts before they become words. Will keep trying though.....